Carmie's Story

I was raised Catholic but stopped going to church in my teen years. At age 40 I began to wonder what I was working so hard toward and was it worth it, since I was only going to die anyway? I went to the library and brought home lots of books looking for answers. I stared at this hugh pile of books on my kitchen table and got discouraged thinking - I will be dead before I begin to find any answers. Then I thought instead of looking in the books for answers that if there really is a God then I should ask him for the answer. I said a short prayer, it went something like this - Dear Lord if you are real please let me know it.

The next night I was preparing a bath for my baby and I was not even thinking about God or the answers to life, when all of a sudden I felt something very powerful in the room with me. Then I began to have a life review - saw events in my life where I was hurting people yet I was unaware of this - it made me feel very sad - I wanted a chance to do something about this but I thought then that I was dying and this was it. Then after the life review, I heard God say to me "Do you understand what is happening to you?" I didn't fully understand but I understood that this was God showing me my life and so I said yes. Then He asked "Do you understand the consequences of your sins" by this questions I felt that I had blown it somewhere in life and I was going to hell and so I answered yes. Next question was " Do you understand that you will be eternally separated from your children"? I was horrified when I heard this because I had never realized that I could have spent eternity with my children. I think of myself as an extremely caring and loving person towards others, yet I was getting the worse sentence that I could imagine, never seeing my children again.

Then I started to fall down a dark void. When I got to the bottom , the speed at which I was dropping decreased. Soon I was hovering over flames, suspended in the air. I heard the sound of a soul scream out in torment. I was scared beyond belief, knowing that soon I too would be where this person was. I called out for someone to help me, I called for my mother, my husband and a neighbor but all there was was silence. I thought how much we all need each other and now I could no longer call upon anyone and how much I had taken others who had come to my aid for granted. Then I started to think about a sign I had seen a few months earlier which said "Are You Saved, Only Jesus Saves" - being Catholic I had never heard this expression before and did not know what it was referring to. Then I started to see a pinpoint of light beginning to pierce though the darkness, it grew larger and larger and soon spelled out the words Jesus Christ. I looked and thought - Jesus - so what - he was just a man. Then I began to put words together Jesus - savior - I thought Savior from what, for what? Then - SAVIOR - OH MY-maybe Jesus can save me and I screamed out JESUS SAVE ME. All of a surdden I was pulled out of the the dark hole and was put in biblical times. I saw all of biblical history in the twinkling of an eye. I then said - WOW - this stuff really happened - Jesus - the crucifiction - Jesus was God - He was really God. Get me out of hear I have to go tell the world. Then boom I was right back in the room in the same spot with the towel in my hand and no time had passed.

I called my neighbor - she brought over a bible and I started reading it and saw in the bible all the stuff I had seen in the vision - at that point I was really convinced that there is a God and so I think that God answered my prayer.

I started going to church after that and I read the bible (New Testament) over at least 5 times.

It was explained to me at chruch about Jesus being a sacrifice for our sins. I had heard it growing up but did not get the full impact until this experience.

Carmie can be reached at: carmiesummers@comcast.net

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